Its Time To Make Some Changes

I don't know what it is, I've just been playin so badly, I'm the biggest fish ever these past couple months and I just don't know what to do anymore...I can't help shipping my stack and distributing my chips across the table...am I playing with the same group too long? Do I just get that unlucky whenever someone sucks out something viscious on me? Whatever the reason is, it all comes down to one thing...I play bad and it shows.

I HAVE TO PUT A STOP TO THIS...Maybe I have too much on my mind lately...which I do but I won't put it out here...but has it been causing me to play incorrectly? To make bad decisions? My Tilt meter has been more sensitive lately also...Its too easy to tilt me now...My patience has been running thin as well...all signs of destruction and going BROKE. I don't have a job and soley count on playing, hosting and dealing to make ends meet, and if I can't work it out the right way, im going to be in alot of trouble...

Not only poker that I have been making bad decisions...also my life decisions have been a little suspect...I've been doing alot of stupid shit lately as well...I've gotten O.C. with it...just running wild...and it needs to stop...I'm putting myself on restriction...restriction? Yes, restriction! No More Poker Games to play in...No More wildin' out on my free time...I've also found myself neglecting my family and friends as well...

New plan from this point forward...Dealing and hosting will be on my agenda...I need to rebuild some type of bankroll and manage it correctly. Its hard not to jump into a game, but I'm going to have to just practice strong will power...Let this money stack so I'm comfortable with what im doing with it...Spend more time with my daughter...flat out take a break from playing in games...Thats it...

I know its gonna be hard to believe, especially when I have friends that will try to make me play...I'm just going to have to practice "NO" for some time now...but its not bad to take a break and just do other things....

Its getting warmer, I'm going to go play some golf with my cousins again. I'm going to get enough sleep during the week and try to eat better...be more healhy with it...Excersice more...Hopefully when I jump in the game, I'll have a whole new attitude, a good attitude, patience, good judgement and hopefully be more profitable playing again..till then, we'll see how it works out...

BTW...if you haven't guessed, all this came from taking another loss at my Pink Game this past Friday and Pops game tonight...I was so irritated at my bad play, that I was ready to drive like a maniac on BW Parkway....I felt really angry tonight and this is not the way it should be...definately a wake up call for me.

Losing Sucks

Well its been a while cause it's been rough this week since last I posted...So much for a break, this time, I'm dead serious about a break, I just need it, I need to clear my head and get on track...I don't know what it is, I'm running bad, playing bad....which only leads to disaster!

I haven't really blogged my losses this past week and a half cause I just didn't want to talk about it, or re-live it again..just know its been pretty brutal...3 outers or less here and there...playing bad...its just retarded...But I am not gonna go over all the hands from this past week, just know Pocket 4s are the devil's cards...wow pocket 4s really put a hurtin on me lately!

But I started this week on a good note, crushed Big Chris game last night...Maybe it took that to get my spirits up...We'll see how everything goes tonight at the $1-$2 NL game that Keenan and I run on Mondays..I definately want to jump in the game!

I have been itchin to go to Atlantic City, so I might just make a day or 2 trip up there this week...depends on how tonight goes, if all is well, I'll be taking the first bus up in the morning Tuesday...unless someone wants to ride up with me and split costs, then I'll drive up instead of bussing it...prefer bus though, leave the driving up to bus driver...slap on my iPod and just sit back and relax till I get dropped off at the Trop! Cheaper bussing it up anyway instead of paying gas and tolls!

Now Thats a Blocking Bet

Well First off, I said last week I wasn't going over to the Donkey Corral this week...So on Tuesday, We decided to go play Goodfellas Game that evening...It wasn't planned at all either...Keon came around for a little adventure early in the evening...Didin't go so well, so we called Kenny to go to Sinsationals. I have never been and its practically around the corner from my house...I heard its like Irvings part II...if you don't know what Irvings is, its a club off Central Ave in Capital Heights, MD...Sweatpants is required wear, at least for me it is!!

We arrive at Sinsationals and Keon just punished 2 Dueces of Heinikins in between the 15 minute drive from the liquor store to the club...he didn't want to go cause he said he has been and it sucks...so I take his word, he says lets go to Baltimore, I don't care, he then talks himself into playin some poker....uh...OK...lemme go home and grab some money...and we are off to the poker game in the middle of the night...

Get to Rob's game and wait about 10 minutes when the big stack cashes out and some lady, so we both sit down, and I sit down to QQ...raise from the BB and Nick, some other guy, and Tim all call me...AJ7 falls, I bet out $35 and get called by one person, Nick...turn 7, I check, Nick bets out "SEVENTY -FIVE" Not the way we say it, but it made me laught and just mucked and showed my queens...

Ended up runnin my stack up peaking at a $75 profit and game starts to break, 4 handed and im in the BB and look at 44, I just check...me and Rob in the hand...4c7c9d, I check, Rob Checks, Turn Qh, I check, Rob Bets out $10, I raised to $20, he calls, River is an 8, I check again, he bets out $30 and im stubborn and call knowin that was bad and I was beat...I just had to make sure I was right...(Stupid), he has 5c6c..flopped a fuckin monster!

I left dead even.

Wednesday night, I know Im going to want to go play tonight...I'm in a hand with Ree...Can you take me to the store? RAISE, Let Cheyenne spend the night with me tonight, She calls, we both check the river...2 pair... Baby Sit/No Game! I baby sit Cheyenne and Can't go to the game cause I know my degenerate ass would've ended up showing up so no game for me....I scoop a $600 pot that I would've probably donked off tonight at Travis' and Noelle's Game! Now Thats a Blocking Bet!

No AC for E

Well, Last nights game ran pretty well..ended around 7:30 am..played 6 and 5 handed for the majority of the morning...The line up was pretty sick and I wanted to play like shit...but of course, when I finally get in the game, its pretty much the better players of the evening still sitting waiting and salivating for that rake back program that I participate in.

I lose my stack to Travis when it was straddled and he min raises it to $6...I make it $18 with 5s7s and picked up 3 hitch-hikers...Flop comes out 5c6sAs...I bet out $35, Travis calls, Eddie folds, 9c rolls off on the turn and I mush the rest of my stack, Travis quickly calls. River brought a blank, and I have a pair of 5s. He flips over 2 red cards, 9J to stack my ass....Man, This guy is Real Good!

I rebuy and just go card dead..played extra tight just so I can last the rest of the morning...Its alot of straddles, restraddles, $15-$20 to go preflop game between the 5 of us...I complain I just wanna re-raise one time...couple hands later I find 2 red Jacks! Big John Re-straddles to $8, Travis just calls, "Raise...Finally!" I say..."$40", eddie quickly calls, Big John Folds, Travis Calls...Oh yeah, before it got to Eddie, Ricky Bobby is pondering to either Mush or fold...I go into this speach, I'm mushing whatever comes on the flop...He says, why wouldn't I go all in, and I say cause I want callers. That got him to fold ( I Think) and was hoping the rest of the table would follow..but tagged 2 callers...

MUSH DARK

Flop: KcQsXc (Maybe?)

Eddie folds, Travis Calls...shit...

a Black Ace falls and a 9 falls on the river...

I'm hating the board and flip my JJ over and he says they are good.

Meanwhile, Ricky Bobby is falling off his chair when the river fell...Kenny said I told you so...His Set of 9s REAL GOOD.

Whew...Almost Even!

Can't catch cards again and leaked a Ball before the night ended...Stuck $115 from being in the game $400...

Guess I aint going to AC..Might go check out Goodfellas Game tonight though....We'll see...

Weekend Recap

Well after trying to get over Wednesday night, I had the pink game on Friday, Didn't jump in the game till around 5am to keep the game going...I did fine and didn't ship it.

Right after the pink game, I had to go straight over to Steve's Tournament to deal...30 players for that tournament with a $220 buy in...top 5 was paid out with 1st getting a good $2700...You would've thought dealing that tourney would be worth the money...Blah...it was real bad...dealt the cash game for a little while afterwards...

Sunday there wasn't much happening, no games to go too and I was itchin to play....Probably better off that way...

Tonight is Mine and Keenan's $1-$2 NL Game...I'm probably gonna go to atlantic City afterwards..hopefully someone will want to roll out with me, if not, I might just make a solo trip up there...I kinda want to play the Wednesday 10K Guaranteed at the Borgata on Wednesday...Its all up to tonight though...we'll see......

Pops and Travis games...

Well, Monday, Keenan and I had to cancel our Monday game cause he had some family going over his place to watch the NCAA Championship Game...So Pops decided to have a $4-$8 Dealers Choice Game...

So I went over there to play...we played some fun game, and DC Games are tons of fun, I could say I'm starting off the month on a good foot...till Wednesday over Travis Game...

I'm stuck pretty early and finally make the board money back plus some of mine...I'm almost dead even till I ship my stack to fuckin Scooter...Man, I fuckin hate losing to Scooter...I hate losing to alot of people, some I don't mind losing too...But for some fuckin reason I hate losing to his ass...

So the hand that stacked me...Scooter raises to $7, can't remember positions...Nicoli calls, I call, Eric Calls...4 of us see the flop...4d 8d Jc somethin like that...Now I remember, I'm last to act...Eric then makes it to $12, Both Scooter and Nicoli call, I raise to $50, Eric mushes his remaing stack in making it $68 I believe??? Scooter elects to just call, I say all -in...but because Eric's raise was not more than half my raise, I can only call...I say fuck it, ima go all in on thie next street anyway....Turn brings a K...and I tell scooter, "Don't make no stupid ass bet" and motions all-in..I insta call and river brings a non pairing, non diamond blank...scooter turns Pocket Kings over for a set of Kings, I fuckin toss my cards face up while throwing up and show my flopped set of 4s...Eric tells me he was fuckin around on the diamon draw...Scooter Scoops...

Fuck next Wednesday, I'm unlocking my seat as we speak for next week...I'm starting to get tired of shipping it over there, next to the pink game, which I won't be playing for a while either...Is the 2nd worse spot to play at...I'm down so much money over there im just tired of gettin my ass whipped over there...fuckin ridiculous how bad im running over there....

Not Too Much Happenin' as the month of March comes to a close...

Well, been a week since I posted, but not too much has been happenin' this week...

Lets see...No Poker on Tuesday, No Poker on Wednesday, which is shocking...I usually go over to Trav and Nelly's Donkey Coral to play $1-$2 NL, but I had Cheyenne with me, so I wasn't able to go sling chips around, Dealt over Steve's on Thursday, Had the Pink Game Friday, that went till early morning again...It was a pretty sick game, specially that we changed the game up a lil' bit after early morning...played some pitch and bitch and introduced 5 card omaha to the mix...

I went over to Pops game on Saturday, Played and Shipped it..Got up, which would've made the game very short handed, so Nelly said she would play and let me jump in the box...Luckily, by the time the game filled up with a wait list that Nelly said she would give up her seat, I made enough back to cover what I dropped at the game...Whew...

Cheyenne is off of school starting this Wednesday for her Spring Break, so I want to go to AC on Monday and Tuesday, so if anybody tryin to go, you know how to get in touch with me...

March overall was good so I have no complaints...I could really try to play better, I want to see a big jump in profit the Month of April as far as my play is concerned.